God Holds His Little Heart (1)

My wife with her situation, many people came and went so often to and from our house, and the plan of my wife’s move to LA, were very challenging for our little family. One thing I constantly monitored was the way Cyan, our son, was taking it.

He is such a little warrior. I was there on his last day of school in Portland. All of his friends gave a goodbye, one by one, and hugged him if they would like to.

On the last night before his temporary move to Los Angeles, he sat down in the corner of his room and read the card his friends wrote him. He was silent. He then shared the card with his grandparents. Then he took a moment to see the pillowcase his teacher made him. The pillowcase has all of his friend pictures on it. From his expression I know there were a lot of mixed emotions in his little heart.

My heart went out to him. I uttered a silent prayer towards our Father in Heaven to take care of my little warrior. My Heavenly Father never failed me and I know He will never fail my son either.

This is a turbulent time for our little family but I also know that God is our Eye of the Storm.

In one of our night talk, my son asked me, “Papa, if Mama goes to Heaven, what is going to happen to me, will somebody pick me up?”

I looked at him straight in the eye with a convinced nod, “I will be the one who is going to pick you up Cyan. I will be the one who is going to be there for you. I will never leave you alone. I will be at your side. We are going to get through this together. We take care of each other. OK? You can depend on me, son.”

He smiled cheerfully, “OK....” Simple and childlike.

After he fell asleep, I sat beside him with tears, “Father, hold his little heart. Hold my heart and be with us always. You are our caregiver to our little family.”

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Thank You God for Safe Journey to LA

My wife, Rosa, has been going through her condition gracefully. She has a great deal of inner strength and inspired a lot of people. She went to the hospital for 6 days 5 nights because of the obstruction of her tumor in her stomach causing the inability to ingest food.

She always wants to visit Los Angeles, initially to do some clinical trials from City of Hope. She has four doctors handling her case in Portland and another three down in Southern California. As the situation developed, the doctors decided that it did not make medical sense to go. However, she still wanted to visit to Los Angeles. If not for medical reasons, then it was to see many of our friends and family during our 13 years living there.

We booked the ticket on New Year’s Day to go to LA. As the days drew near, the doctor did not give us the greenlight because her condition was still too weak. We canceled the trip. After a few days staying home with hospice care, the idea rose again.

Preparation started. This time the doctor okayed it.

We went to the airport divided into 2 groups. The first group consisted of my father and sister in law and me. We were in charge of checking in the bags and got things ready. The second group was Rosa and her mom and two of our prayer group friends.

The wheelchair was ready to take her in. She was weak but her eyes were fully determined to make the trip. I whispered some words of encouragement to my wife. The two of us prayed and surrendered to God our Maker. She had lost 40 lbs and her skin was yellow because of her liver condition but her spirit is at peace. Praise be to God!

I waited for a few hours then my mother in law called. They arrived safely at my parents in law’s home in Chino Hills. I talked to her and we said “I love you” to each other.

It was a happy day for her. She was able to arrive there safely. She was also able to see her newborn niece, Dylan Rose whom her sister gave birth only a few days earlier. Rosa told me she planned to take a stroll with a wheelchair around the block with Dylan in the morning. Praise God!

Thank you Lord for the safe journey. Thank you Lord for being with us always, amen!

Bro Chan


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A Quote from Henry Van Dyke

I’d like to share a very touching quote from Henry Van Dyke. It verbalizes beautifully about our journey towards the Father.

Bro Chan
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I am standing upon the seashore. A ship at my side spreads her white sails to the morning breeze and starts for the blue ocean.

She is an object of beauty and strength. I stand and watch her until at length she hangs like a speck of white cloud just where the sea and sky come to mingle with each other.

Then, someone at my side says; "There, she is gone!"

"Gone where?"

Gone from my sight. That is all. She is just as large in mast and hull and spar as she was when she left my side and she is just as able to bear her load of living freight to her destined port. Her diminished size is in me, not in her.

And just at the moment when someone at my side says, "There, she is gone!" There are other eyes watching her coming, and other voices ready to take up the glad shout; "Here she comes!"

And that is dying.


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